This is my first blog here and I feel undecided for some time, about how I want to be able to go about this major.
For some time, I really did not enjoy my degrees. I believe I started thinking at first I needed money to get a job and my trajectories won’t be meaningful but at the same time I want to do my best.
I really could not stand making myself do more years of art school and art college, so I was trying to think about getting a job. Well, I just cannot see myself doing any sort of art field after being fed up with it for a while.
I believe even if I finished this I’d graduate late anyways, perhaps I would be taking 5 years at university instead of the typical 4 years to graduate. Unlike my peers who would be graduating and having successful lives, I am still a bit undecided about my future for quite a while.
I’ve honestly have not decided but I will make up my mind and try to finish International Studies. Even if I really probably think nothing will come out of this, maybe something will happen or maybe not.
Interdisciplinary Studies
I do not study in an American university. Maybe I need some other excuses maybe I have not and need some time to figure out my ending ends, perhaps to take some time on how I want to move my life direction. I know some people have more public online lives than I could get or credited for, but I have been undecided about this.
I take a lot of major subjects to finish university due to how behind I am in general. Personally I am probably behind in like in this aspect or so when it comes to university and finishing.
Maybe I am trying to think who I am and ideally want to finish something and just graduate with any degree. I am in one of those fields that would just require a very useless degree and would still do fine in my career path.
I feel like I could supplement my career path IT with projects and stuff that the major has suddenly. I just need to polish my resume for a little and fix up my Linkdin and finish up GitHub repository to my home lab.
I feel like I am amore of ana analytical than an artistic creative person that has come to me but that is ok and maybe I want to live with the idea. Maybe that is why at the moment well I hate my current major and that is how I see my major at the moment.
One thing for certain I think maybe i look into things too well and have been undecided for a path for sometime maybe I need to pay attention to how I want to respond to things better and focus on getting my gpa in a better spot.
Studying continuously
Perhaps I feel like student life is tiring, I’d have to accept unlike most students my graduation is delayed by a year, I would take 5 years instead of 4 years of my usual university peers that will be on this timeline a lot faster than me. Maybe I would ned to defy my own path for sometime maybe I will just find a lot of things better for me than I expected.
One thing for certain I will be in the university or the area longer than expected due to wanting to take physical IT certifications such as the CompTIA certs that are made for the typical IT people who would want to go to the field.
I hope whatever I found I would be able to discover new activities I would like to explore longer in it. Maybe figure out where my strengths are from and how I want to be able to understand what and who I am. Maybe I am more analytical than what I predicted and maybe I am more open to new environments than what I could be and be more understanding of what I have.
Graduating Friends
I believe that I will miss out the most is how people graduate well I do not think I will be able to follow the regular timeline due to how much I screwed up a hell hole of my subjects and it would possibly take a while for anything to happen on this space. I would take longer maybe since I have been constantly undecided for a major for quite some time. I have spent too many years in subjects where I have my very weak majors on and how to deal with the everyday of these weak majors.
I feel like maybe I will get used to everything eventually maybe I will figure out who I am as a person I feel young, but I also feel like I am very old in some sense on how I run and do things.
I honestly need to spend less time and hours on Facebook, maybe I will post how I will spend less time on social media. Well, I naturally do not spend too much time on social media except when I have fandoms, such as anime and mainly Gacha games such as Genshin Impact Fandom, and even the Honkai Star Rail which I have neglected my profile for very long on these Gacha games. Genshin Impact, I managed to slowly pick it up and I will write continuing forward here.
For now, all I have to do for now is to graduate any degree and finally be able to take my masters in Europe, hopefully I managed to spend all my time managing and taking my time too. Perhaps I will manage after a few decades time to be able to figure out what can and what I could not do but to raise the impact and potential of who I am and the road, I will follow.